I know a lot of people who sees insurances as a disadvantage because you keep on paying for an anticipation of a disaster but to anyone who had experienced being in a car accident a simple scratch in your car can cost you a lot if you don’t have any car insurance, not too mention the hassle it will bring to you as well. That is why I encourage you to find a car insurance that can help you get protected in every way possible and if you are living anywhere near New Jersey, come visit New Jersey car insurance and find a plan that can best work for you and for your needs. Keep yourself protected at all times.

A lupus friend of mine said that I should get a disability card from our municipal hall so that I can present the disability card in PUVs or any public establishments that can give me a priority in lines, be seated on a standing public transport and maybe some discounts on medicines. But I’m not sure if I’ll be classified as a disabled person because having lupus means you have an invisible disease that you cannot simply stare at me and know instantly that I am sick, I have to tell you that I am sick and sometimes you will probably utter with disbelief because “I don’t look sick” I’m not sure if this is some kind of dilemma or probably a blessing because personally I don’t want people to take pity on me because I am miserably sick, I just wanted to be treated just like everyone else. But maybe if our country provides social security disability insurance I will probably avail of one because any financial assistance is a welcoming gesture but then again, the cruelty of living in the third world country, reality sucks!

Sometimes I wish I had a comprehensive health plan that can cover all my health expenses. Just like Blue Cross Blue Shield North Carolina where you can choose a health package suited for your needs and it will provide you an insurance that when sickness strikes you are very much protected with all the financial struggle. I wish our country had a program like that, yes we do have medical cards, insurances but it is just not enough especially if you have a chronic illness like me. It is such a struggle and rather painful too.

We don’t really have a patio but I’ve always dreamed of having one. I used to daydream that every afternoon the man of my dreams and I will be sitting on patio chairs sipping coffee or tea and just talking about how our day went by… Yeah, yeah another fairy tale notion of mine about love and it’s just stupid… anyway, life goes on and no matter how screwed up our life can be we cannot make the world stop, can we? I don’t want to be all pessimistic, I probably just need some coffee.

My brother is a graphic artist and he badly needs a new laptop for his work. He needs a laptop with high memory and excellent video graphics. His work involves a lot of editing and graphic designs and his current laptop cannot function well anymore. But with his current pay, I don’t think he can afford it right now (well, he can’t afford almost anything at all) *peace* he was browsing at some of the featured laptops in best buy to at least have an idea on how much those laptops cost.

I’ve been sick again and not feeling well lately but I am more than thankful that I am doing alright now. I guess, lupus just wouldn’t let me be happy for so long that it had to remind me from time and time again that I have to deal with this chronic illness for quite sometime. I have a confession, since lupus is such an unpredictable illness I tend to overdo things when I am feeling okay… I tend to go wherever I want if I had the chance, I work overtime, I juggle with my time and multi-tasking everytime because I feel that lupus is just waiting there to struck me again with another flare. Sometimes I just want to take all the energy I have because who knows when lupus starts to flare up again. I need to slow things down and relax a bit and learn to trust God more that He knows my heart’s desire, and He will heal me in His own time.

What a greater way to relax is to have a view of the pond fountains it really looks nice, soothing and refreshing. Have a great weekend, everyone!

All of us wants to have clear smooth face right? I know, I do and most of my girlfriends want it too. They even have regular beauty regime just to help them look young and beautiful. Some even have regular visits to the dermatologist to take extra care for their skin. I am not that vain but I do visit my dermatologist once in awhile. I don’t need extra applications on my face like an acne cleanser, I just need a facial wash and that’s it. I am just so thankful that I never had problems with pimples or acne.

I don’t see anything wrong in wanting to look good. It is always nice to look in the mirror and liking what you see.

It’s been raining like crazy today and it marks the end of the summer season. Well, I should be glad, right? After all, the terrible heat has been punishing me but I am not a very big fan of the rain as well… maybe I should migrate to another country (hmmm just a thought).  My brother lost his phone the other day and it’s just annoying. He’s been enjoying his job and I am glad that he starting to be mature enough. It takes two and a half hour to travel to his office and he has to pass by a lot of metal buildings to help him get there. Likewise, I have been so busy the past few days and I am glad that I’ve been having a lot of freelance work these days and I can manage my time well.

Just for update, I am doing and feeling much better now. The dramatic post was just a burst out from a bad day and I am getting by slowly. Basically, I am happy with everything that’s been happening in my life. I just consider myself too blessed to complain about anything.

It’s been a year since I had my worst lupus flare ever and looking back sort of made me sad but I have to remind myself that I have every reason to be thankful for. God has been so good!

This photo was taken in Bicol two years ago…

Yeah, I look heavy right? nah, I look fat and I will not argue on that one because that’s just the way I used to be the chubby girl with steroids. I really don’t mind it at that time because I really don’t care what others may think about how I look but I had to admit that it had some effect on my confidence and I will not lie about doing a lot of things to lose weight… diet, exercise, even diet pills such as clinicallix and for some people it might have worked but it wasn’t successful on me. I guess you need a lot of will power and discipline to really lose weight and I am so delighted that after years of struggling, I am now at peace with my weight.