When Lupus happened to me almost eight years ago, my life was forever changed.
It was just one morning when I woke up with an overwhelming pain in my whole body and I can’t barely move. I freaked out, I thought I was being paralyzed. I remembered screaming, calling for my mom because I can’t feel my legs. That was the start of an endless battle with an unknown sickness. I spent almost a whole month in the hospital, not knowing what was really happening and the doctors still unable to diagnose my condition. I spent the next six months in a wheel chair, the hospital is the only place I go to, I underwent a series of laboratory tests, medical exams, operations, medications, etc etc…
Actually I don’t wanna look back but its difficult not to especially when the illness is still very much with me. I don’t know how I survived going through all that, I can’t remember where I got the strength to go on and I don’t know how I managed to get by each day, knowing that everything in my life is changing and my life is temporarily on hold.
I cannot say that I’m much better now, in fact I’m having the longest Lupus flare I ever had and I have been sick for awhile now but somehow I already got used with the fact that Lupus is a part of me and they say that I’m gonna have it for the rest of my life 
well, I’m not really expecting a miracle just enough grace to help me live with lupus with grace.
March 14th, 2009 at 2:20 am
I remember when my ex-wife was diagnosed with Lupus.. It forever changed her life as well as mind and our kids. Keep up the fight…
April 1st, 2009 at 10:14 am
Hi Emily…that’s what I pray for, strength to get through each hour, each day, whether it’s the Lord’s will to heal me or not. I have lost so many Christian friends who get tired of me not getting healed when they keep praying for me, and they can’t understand that sometimes the Lord has a reason for a person’s struggles. Other people learn through our suffering. Bless you, Sheila