Last Saturday I got my laboratory results and since I feel better I was expecting that somehow my condition improved. Well, I’m wrong. It appears that I am sicker than ever and my 24-hr urine test revealed that I barely have fifty percent functioning of my kidneys, I guess my lupus nephritis had emerged once again. My rheumatologist prescribed new medicines and I have to deal with one of my greatest fears again, to take a higher dose of steroids once again. I feel bad because I worked hard to really lose weight and now that I’m back with a higher dose of steroids I’ll be gaining all those weight again and not to mention it can cause swelling of my feet that can lead me back to not being able to walk again.

Well, I guess I need to say goodbye to the good days. I feel like I’m back at square one and no matter how hard I try or how earnestly I pray I keep on getting sicker and sicker. It’s breaking my spirit and sometimes I just want to fall apart. I am trying so hard to stay calm and optimistic. I’ve been telling myself that I’ve been through worse so what the heck am I scared about. I tried to be strong but when I’m alone I can’t help but feel miserable, I am worried what if I don’t get better, what if no matter what medication I try my kidneys still manage to fail and I have to undergo dialysis, I don’t know if I’m strong enough to handle anymore bad news.

This journey with lupus is just a terrifying walk. I sometimes wish I’m just riding in a bus where I could just yell at the driver STOP, I JUST WANT TO GET OUT! I wish it could be that simple.

It’s brand new week and since it’s a non-working holiday today I just spend the entire day watching TV and some DVDs. I also get to clean my files and after a long while I was able to burn my travel pictures. I’m glad for the spare time and I browse for some interesting new uploads in my favorite online auction shop. I restrain myself from bidding for I am trying to save. I also checked out the new featured items in the weekly deals at Buy.com and the items are simply astounding. The prices are so affordable because all items are on sale. You can really save a lot by purchasing any item that is part of the weekly deals at Buy.com

There’s just too many stuff in there that I wanted for myself just like Iomega 500GB Prestige Desktop USB 2.0 External Hard Drive. I’ve wanted to buy one, so that I could have a huge space for my desktop PC at home. I hate to delete files away and I particularly don’t want to throw away any pictures and sometimes backing them up with your flashdrive or even burning them in your CDs are just not enough, I want all my files to be intact and with the 500GB external hard drive, I don’t think I’m deleting any files ever again. I am so glad its part of the weekly deals this week and I can save a lot in my purchase and did I mention its free shipping too? What a fabulous deal!

Our subdivision recently issued a memo that all car owners should refrain from parking their cars in the street even if it’s in front of their own home. They say that it affects the flow of traffic inside the subdivision and I really think it’s a fine idea because the whole street can be so crowded with cars and sometimes it gets difficult to maneuver especially when those cars around. But what exactly do you do when you have no garage to park your car with, I think it’s a huge problem you don’t want your car to have its own space but the thing is not everyone has the luxury of having their own garage. It’s a good thing that there are Garages for rent nowadays and it is widely available in UK.

Now, you can ease your mind on searching for a place to park for your car. You can just rent a private parking space or garage on a monthly basis and they are so affordable. Having your own garage can give you assurance that your car is safe and imagine the luxury of having a secure parking space that can make you come and go as you please. So what are you waiting for get your very own space right now!