Today marks the seventh year of my never-ending journey with Lupus.
It was on August 3, 2001 when I walk up almost paralyze from waist down and can hardly move my body that was just the start of what seems to be the endless battle with the invisible disease that has changed my life.
I don’t want to rant about it anymore. I just want to believe that everything happens for a reason and I may not truly understand what God has in store for my life and I sometimes still wrestle with Him about having to endure this chronic illness but through it all I am still holding on, I am still keeping the faith.
I used to be a plan-ahead kind of girl, I often schedule everything and follow a certain path towards my goal. Like I always say, my life used to be perfect. I have everything just the way I planned, I have what it takes to be successful and happy in life but Lupus changed all that. Now, I have to adjust my life with the illness and the uncertainty of it can be so difficult at times.
I may fume with anger sometimes about having Lupus and how it ruined my what so-called my perfect life but I always tell myself, my plans for my life may have been good but God’s plan is always the best.
August 4th, 2008 at 2:22 am
I am sorry to hear you have this terrible disease. I dont have personal experience with Lupus, but my mom has Fibromyalgia, what they call a sister disease to Lupus. I have seen what this illness can do to people. She had to fight, and fight to be able to go back to work full time. I am sure she will be glad when she can retire in 1 yr, it is very hard.
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August 4th, 2008 at 9:30 am
and dance like nobody’s watching! I’m talking about shaking it like crazy ~.^ Don’t let anything stop you honey!
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August 6th, 2008 at 4:33 am
Yup that’s the spirit! Thanks for “getting me notified” by a comment in my blog.
I’ve never known about lupus until I somehow stumbled this through Entrecard. I’m really glad your getting moral support online and offline.
It is indeed a personal battle - it happened to affect how you live your life.
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August 26th, 2008 at 10:40 am
Praise God I found your blog! I am so full of so many different feelings. I am a Christian so I know that I am to praise G0D in all things, but it is most difficult with this disease!
I am 32 years old. I have had this condition for 5 years and am only now being diagnosed. Univ. of PA is awesome to me! But they can’t take away my fear and anger and being 32 years old and having 3 children age 14, 12, and 10, & feeling like I am paralyzed one day and then one day I wake up and it is like it is gone, until the next time it feels like attacking.
I am praying and thanking God for you for me finding this site.
God bless you.