“The only thing that cannot be recycled is time wasted.”

I’m thirty years old. I’m single and sick. It feels like time is running me over. I feel like I’m a clock rapidly ticking and I’m running out of time… It’s a scary thought that I may actually spend the rest of my life alone and I can never found the “one”

Quite honestly, I’m not really worried that I am still single. I am enjoying my life and since I am sick, I don’t want to be a burden with anyone. But still, I worry about the future and what if I never find myself in love again. I want to be married someday and although everyone said that I cannot bear a child, I am still hoping that I could have my own child someday.

I’m not really sure what the future holds but my days have been so toxic, I sometimes don’t notice that a day has passed. My life is like a routine and although I love my life, I hate the fact that I don’t feel challenged and there’s no excitement in my life. I must be nuts for thinking this way but I just hear the clock ticking and it’s racing against my thoughts.

I am so glad that June is finally over. I so hate that month. It’s bad enough that I’ve been sick most of the time it’s also the wedding month and two of my former officemates got married last month and it’s no surprise that I was a bridesmaid again. As a bridesmaid, it was part of my duty to take part on organizing the shower party. My friends and I bought a sexy bodystockings as the gift for the bride, we think it’s perfect for the honeymoon night.

I am quite blessed that I didn’t have to worry about pimples or acne when I was in my younger years. Until now, I don’t really have to worry about those face problems. My friends asked me if I have a beauty regimen that I follow regularly because my face always look radiant but the truth is I just wash my face with soap and I never sleep with make-up on. I don’t usually wear heavy make-up and I often used sunblock. It must have been difficult to have acne or pimples and for women that will certainly affect our confidence and self-esteem. It’s a good thing there’s a lot of acne removal available today so that women need not to worry about it too much.