Sick again!

Yesterday, I had a terrible back ache and muscle pain. I also experienced shortness of breath every time I walk. I was too proud to tell everyone I am not feeling well again so I just told them I’m tired and sleepy. I tried to rest all day and just sleep, hoping that I’ll wake up feeling much better. I secretly took my pain killer because my mom doesn’t want me to be dependent with pain killers but I just need to take them otherwise I’ll be suffering from this pain, and I just couldn’t take it anymore.

This morning, I still feel the ache in my back but I tried to get up and go to work. I don’t want this pain to interfere with my life again. But I just need something to take this pain away and I’m starting to lose appetite again. I’m scared that this is a prelude to another lupus flare. I can only pray that it won’t.

I want to have this in my backyard. I think it’s so relaxing. Imagine having breakfast or simply just chill out in these lovely teak outdoor furniture with a good book and soothing music, that’s my idea of a comforting day. Sometimes I need to have days like that, there are times that I just feel like I’m too tired out of nothing at all and what I do need right now is some tranquility.

Everyone is complaining with high cost of living nowadays. The prices of basic commodities are so high. Fuel prices continue to rise and everyone is really doing the best they can to save on money. But it seems no matter how much you try to stay on a budget and try to limit your expenses it’s just not enough and you still experience a bit of a shortage. I think we all need salary increases but that will mean more taxes and basically we can’t really benefit from it. What we need is an extra source of income and an effective plan on how to budget your money. It’s just sad that many people are really struggling with financial burden that causes them to have debts. If you watch the news regularly, you will see more families losing their homes because they weren’t able to pay their mortgages anymore. What’s more alarming is that more people are trying to loan their retirement money just to keep up with the daily cost of living. This is so sad. Imagine your hard earned money for your retirement being taken away because of the economy crisis. I feel blessed that somehow I can still manage to keep my Savings Accounts and be equipped when an emergency strikes.

I feel bad. I was so eager to watch Sex and the City’s red carpet premiere last night and my friend already got us free tickets for the event but I was so sick yesterday and my back ache was worst than ever that I wasn’t able to walk or even get up from my bed. I tried to be optimistic about it and just used the time to rest. I still have to watch SATC and I’m not sure if I can still catch it in the movie house but maybe I can have some theater seating here at home and still have the feel of being in the movie house.