It’s Friday night and I’m supposed to be out with my friends like I always do but I just wanted to go home. During the past weeks, I’ve been feeling so sad when I know I shouldn’t, even I couldn’t find any reason to be lonely but that’s what I’ve been feeling.

A lupie friend told me to trace back my sadness and maybe I’ll find out why I’ve been feeling so lonesome. That’s when I asked myself when was the last time I was truly happy and it was during the time I was at Boracay. After that, I’ve been catching up with work and I feel so stressed out. Sometimes I feel like I’m running a race and I don’t even know why. A week after Bora, I left for Bicol it was an impromptu trip, unplanned and I didn’t particularly enjoyed myself there but it gave me a chance to runaway again. I feel trapped and maybe it’s just my hormones or my lupus but I really need something to cheer me up.

I’ve been feeling sick the whole week and I didn’t perform well at my job. I even had to turn down my friends invitation to go out because I prefer to be alone, I am such a bad company right now and I don’t want to ruin my friends mood by my unhappiness. I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I’m getting tired of even wondering why. I just hope it will pass very soon because I don’t like this feeling at all.

It’s all over the news the oil prices are going up again this midnight, so I had to rush to the gasoline station and fill up my tank to somehow save on gasoline. The price of oil is unstoppable and it’s a problem worldwide. If only I live near my workplace I’ll probably just walk, well, I could take a bike if I know how to ride one but I really need to come up of ways to save on energy and gas consumption. My cousin said it’s important that my car is in good condition and I have the best quality of auto parts so that my car can run smoothly and efficiently. I have to wait in line at the gasoline station, it seems everyone has the same idea as I was.