I still got the blues. Despite my relentless effort I still feel so down and lonely. Whenever I feel this way I try my best to think about all the blessings that God is continuously giving me. I know, I really have no excuse to be sad that’s why I blame it on lupus but it got me thinking that maybe there’s a certain unhappiness in me that I’m just trying to ignore or maybe I’m not really happy at all. But I refuse to believe that, I love my life right now, I may not exactly have everything I ever wanted but who does anyway. I’m just hoping that this anxiety or whatever it is that I am feeling will go away in time and I’ll be back to my usual happy mood. The rain poured this afternoon, if it can rain during the summer season then there’s absolute possibility that I can find joy despite the blues.

Posted on Friday, April 25th, 2008 at 8:13 pm and is filed under Lupus, Personal. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.