Yesterday I was weeping, I was so sad over nothing at all and I found myself sobbing, crying with no reason at all. It is one of the things I hate about lupus. I feel like I’m being crazy or something. I know, I’m an emotional person but everything in my life right now is doing just fine except maybe in the arena of romance but I have every reason to be happy, that is why I find it odd to wake up yesterday feeling like somebody I love just died. I felt so alone and I’m not. I can’t really talk about this with my family or friends because I know they just couldn’t understand it. I, myself find it difficult to understand it as well but what can I do. Today, I’m still in a foul mood. I managed to function well at work but everything annoyed me. I’m angry towards something I’m not even sure of… goodness, I’m really going insane. I can only wish that tomorrow would be a better day for me and for every lupie out there.

In celebration of Earth Day and to somehow help ease global warming in my own little way, my household, my friends and I are doing little steps to help the environment. I know, it maybe insignificant or it may not have any impact at all but for me it’s still worth a try. I already started using reusable shopping bags when I make my grocery, I reminded our housemaid to always turn off the lights when nobody is in the room and we recycle jars, bottles and boxes at home too. Do you know that you can still sell those glass breakages from your glass bottles and containers? They make beautiful Glass Cullet that can still be made in different wide range of industries, making it helpful for the environment too. I know it’s not huge but if everyone will somehow do something in his own little way then maybe we still can save the earth from further destruction.

Have you watched this movie? I can’t believe I wasn’t able to watch this when it came out late last year. I just thought this was a grim movie and I lost interest to watch it but yesterday I got the chance to watch it in cable and I was deeply moved by the movie. Will Smith’s character is truly an inspiration, despite incredible adversity and difficulties in life, seizes upon opportunities in pursuit of a better life for himself and for his son. I totally admire how he kept striving despite all the struggles in his life, he focused on his goal and worked extremely hard to achieve it. I loved the way it ended, it gave hope that life may not always be the bed of roses and thorns always gets in the way but despite it all life can still be beautiful.