“We leave something incomplete everyday, whether it’s an area of housework, school, work, friendship, ministry ~ because we are finite.”

~ from The Hidden Art of Homemaking by Edith Schaeffer~

Sometimes I feel like my work is never done. And no matter how I stay up late at night to catch up on my deadlines, I still have a lot of things to do in the morning. There are times that I feel like I’m running, as if I’m in a race and I have to be at the finish line but the thing is I’m only competing with myself. I tend to overdo things sometimes and I always like to challenge myself, almost to the point that I want to do it all, all at the same time. When I was still active in the ministry, I was a Sunday school teacher, a Praise and Worship leader, an outreach coordinator, public school ministry teacher, bible study leader, member of the choir, children’s church facilitator among others. I was doing everything all at the same time but at that time I was on fire, my only desire is to serve the Lord and because of that I neglected my duties at work and had forgotten about my social life. I thought I was doing what God wants me to do. I never really thought that being in the ministry will cause me so much stress and despair, slowly I experienced a Christian burn out. I had to leave and redirect my life. At that time I feel so lost, not really knowing what God has in store for me. I was scared that I might choose the wrong path again and I may go astray.

It was a hard fall, a difficult lesson that I still have to learn. I am no super woman, I am “finite” there’s a limit on what I can do and although at times I feel like I can do all things, I can’t. Somehow, I have learned to manage my time and try to have some balance in all aspects of my life. But the everyday burden seems to be piling up all the time and I just need to remind myself from time to time of Matthew 11:30 “my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” And if I feel like what I’m carrying seems heavy, I just seek the Lord’s presence and remind me that I don’t have to do it all. Life is short and it’s not a race. We are bound to some limitations whether we like it or not, and it’s alright God is not asking for perfection He’s merely asking for passion in everything we do, so find time to just sit back, relax and enjoy life…

God bless!

Posted on Tuesday, March 11th, 2008 at 3:32 pm and is filed under CWO: In "other" Words, Inspirational, Meme, Personal. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.