My ex-boyfriend was an insurance freak. Ever since he had a car accident a couple of years ago he became an insurance fanatic. He always wants everything to be secured, he got car insurance, scholarship insurance for his soon-to-be children, pension plans and everything else. Now, he wants to get a life insurance, and he is looking for the best term life insurance quotes available so that he could add more security in his life. Well, I don’t see anything wrong with it, I sometimes just think he’s overdoing it.

We have a mini bar in our dining room, although my mom discourages us from alcoholic beverages there are times that some friends come over for casual drinks and we just like to hang out and sit at our bar stools while chit-chatting over what’s happening in our lives and just relax. It’s always nice to spend a cozy afternoon with your friends and simple pleasures like this can never be bought.

I had a wonderful Christmas celebration with my family and it is always nice to be surrounded by the people you care so much about. What I love about Christmas is the chance to be reunited with family members you rarely see and chat with them even for awhile just to update on what’s going on with their own lives. I have a big family and even though we don’t get to see each other much these days because everybody is busy with our own stuff, the bond we share is too special that even time cannot hinder us from growing apart. Christmas too is the children’s time to shine, and this year we had a baby blast in our family seven newly born were added in my ever-growing family and I just love my nieces and nephews. Okay, I don’t want to play favorites but unconsciously I bought more gifts to my niece who looks a lot like me and she is also the daughter of one of my favorite elder cousin. That cousin of mine was also my mom’s favorite nephew and godson, we grew up so close to each other that even though he was considered a rebel and problem child in our family, I still look up on him. He used to be a drug addict and he will always be caught in the middle of a gang war and he’ll always end up the bad guy. He dropped out of school because of being a drug dependent and he threw his life and his future ahead of him because of that addiction. It was difficult time in my family and the worse thing is that he’s not alone, I got several other cousins who are also hooked up with drugs and there’s nothing much we can do about it. He accidentally got someone pregnant and the girl’s family didn’t want their daughter to marry my cousin because of his bad reputation and because he was a drug addict, the girl’s parents took away their daughter and went to the States to bear my cousin’s daughter but he never got to see his daughter because she was so far away. My cousin was so devastated that he got himself more hooked with drugs and it seems like there’s no hope for him. But one day, he told his parents that he wants to enter into drug rehabilitation so that he could finally get a drug treatment and start to get his life back. He spent two years in drug rehab and now, he’s now working in a cruise ship and got a family of his own. There’s life after addiction, you just have to take that step forward and get help.

Wishing each and everyone of you a delightful celebration. God bless!

Lupus is very unpredictable. One day (we call them the good days) you’re feeling great and there are days when you can barely get up from bed because of the pain and for unexplainable exhaustion (yes, you guess it right we call them the bad days) I have been in and out of the hospital and sometimes I’m thinking of death and it doesn’t scare anymore but I want to be prepared, I don’t want my family to worry about anything at all when I die so I was thinking of getting a no medical life insurance. Well, I guess it’s quite obvious that I’ll be needing a no medical exam life insurance to get approved by those insurance company and I found out that there’s a lot out there who gives out a no medical term life insurance. Well, I hope I’m no dying anytime soon but if ever I wanted to be prepared.

I’m more of a singer than a dancer but that didn’t stop me to dance whenever I had a chance. If there is one dance that I would really like to learn that will be salsa dancing, I just find it really sexy don’t you think? And salsa dance makes you want to dance the night away… well, obviously because of lupus I cannot go dancing or I may end up in the hospital in no time, I guess I’ll just be content in watching the World Salsa Championships I’m sure it’s going to be fun.

I am so glad to have this site back. If you noticed, my site was down for a couple of days because my web host experienced a technical problem. Well, I’m not at all pissed. I have been so busy anyway and I really don’t have time to blog. Parties here and there, exchanging gifts and doing some last minute shopping… I so love this holiday season! It’s a blessing too that although I feel sick most of the time and the trembling headache can sometimes give me a foul mood, I am still thankful that God is giving me enough energy to do all the things that I love to do. I love going to parties, especially in this time of the year where it’s time to be reunited with old friends and just enjoying all the fun. I have tons of gifts that I feel so wonderful to be remembered by friends. I’m on my way to shop again with my family and I got to prepare myself with the crowded malls, long lines and the terrible traffic… but that’s just a part of it and I have no rants about it. I am just so happy that it seems that I’m having a flare-free Christmas and I wish that all my Lupus friends out there will be as blessed as I am. Take care!

Last Monday, I was able to get myself a Christmas gift a new notebook computer. I have been desiring to have one and I was saving all my blogging money just to buy myself a laptop. And after only two months of pro-blogging I was able to buy the Christmas gift I want. I feel so proud of myself and it’s like a dream come true that I was able to restrain myself in buying bags and shoes and focus on buying a laptop. I so love it!

My cousin loves the outdoor and he always go to a camping trip with his friends and I used to come with them and I really loved hiking and fishing. I remembered having so much fun then but unfortunately I cannot join them anymore. My cousin is having a camping trip again after Christmas and he’ll be testing his new pick-up for this trip, he also got a new truck bed liner so that he wont have a hard time denting.

My mom and I went shopping the other day, sort of our last minute shopping for gifts and we passed through some furniture stores and we were so amazed on how beautiful the new designs available today. I think it’s time to update our furniture and since we are remodeling our house next year, the new furniture will surely be a beautiful addition in our house.

“Don’t blame suffering in the world on the anger of God. He’s not mad; he didn’t mess up. Follow our troubles to their headwaters, and you won’t find any angry or befuddled God. But you will find a sovereign God.
Your pain has a purpose. Your problems, struggles, heartaches, and hassles cooperate toward one end — the glory of God.”

~Max Lucado, It’s Not About Me~

I can’t remember how many times I have blamed God for all the heartaches and the sorrows that came my way. I remembered when I first learned that I have Lupus and my life will forever be changed because of that illness, my first thought was “why me, God” and I pointed out to God if I have been so undeserving, have I been so screwed up in my life that now He is punishing me? Is He angry with me or something? And at the end I found myself blaming God and being angry with Him. For a while, I kept my distance I even came to the point that I stopped praying and I thought, I can do it on my own and I don’t need God. I was a rebel child, I felt God has forsaken me and He don’t love me anymore.

It took awhile before I started to realize who am I kidding, all my life God has been good to me. He had given me everything I wanted and so much more, He has never left my side and He has always helped me when I need Him the most. I know, from the moment that I accepted Jesus in my life as my personal Lord and Savior I did not just take part of His glorious moment but I also have to take part in sharing His pain. Everyday, God is teaching me how to humble myself and accept that my pain has a purpose. My illness taught me so much about life and although I still complain and rant about it especially when the pain is so strong I have learned to embrace it, to live with it with grace… knowing that it was given to me for a reason and although I still don’t have any idea what reason could that be, I only need to trust God and have faith that everything He does is for my own good.

God never stopped loving me, He was not angry with me even though I am undeserving of His goodness, He loves me so much that there is nothing that I can do to make Him love me more and there’s nothing I could have done to make Him love me less. God loves me unconditionally and not everything is about me, there’s a greater good for all our sufferings and struggles we just need to be patient and let God do the work…

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