Christmas is just around the corner and everyday you can sense that it is fast approaching. Don’t you just love the holidays? I like the sparkling Christmas decorations all over, the parties where you can reunite with friends and families you never see, the children making their letters to Santa, the choir singing all the Christmas carols, the delicious food that my mom is gonna cook for our Noche Buena… these are just some of what I love about Christmas and what I love the most is the spirit of giving. Christmas for me is a time of sharing your blessings and time to give back to the less fortunate. The very essence of Christmas is that God gave His only Son, Jesus Christ to be our Savior and we should always look unto God and as Christians we should have a spirit of being able to give and share our blessings. Every year, my family and I go to an orphanage to give the children gifts and spend time with them. It always warms my heart to be with them and just their smile is enough to make me feel happy. These children have been abused, abandoned and some of them have parents in prison. My heart really goes out with them, that’s why I always try to organize fund raising events to help them and some cancer patients in a public hospital. Not everyone was blessed enough to afford the high cost of chemo therapy and it feels great to be able to help in my own little way. I know sometimes, I feel that my small contribution was insignificant but no amount is insignificant when it comes from your heart. That is why it amazes me that some ministries like the Angel Ministries that uses car donations to create children’s animations and anti-drug documentaries. How would you like to Donate a Car? They’ve got a lot of projects that are truly worth looking out, they are even giving Free Children’s DVDs… Interested? Why don’t you check them out and see for yourself. Remember that Christmas is a time of giving and what a better way to thank God for all the good things He has done is to take time to share our blessings.

My friends and I are looking for a gift to our college classmate’s bridal shower party this Saturday and we’re not really that close to her, we are having a hard time finding something appropriate to give her. My friend suggested that we should give her fine lingerie, after all it is something she can use on her honeymoon. Okay, I’m not really excited to go to another wedding at least I’m not a bridesmaid this time, being single can sometimes be a drag.

My mood is still not improving and I’m already feeling sick. I was warned from this, any emotional stress can trigger a lupus flare but I don’t really know how to control this. I am just feeling sad everyday, it’s like the weather right now, everything seems gloomy to me and I already gave up trying to uplift my mood. Somehow, I’m just waiting for God to give me some better days and start feeling happy again.

I spent the whole day alone at the mall yesterday, I did a little shopping for myself and I tried some new clothes. Ever since I got fat because of steroids, I don’t really like shopping for clothes but since the holiday is coming I need a lot of outfit to wear for different parties and I felt a little good about myself to find out that I lost 2 inches in my waist line and I slipped to 2 sizes. That’s really something…

After a tiring day of shopping, I went to a coffee shop and just took my time to observe the people around me. I’m hardly alone and I really treasure times where I can spend time on my own.