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When I was confined at the ICU I was forced to wear adult diapers. For someone my age, that is really shameful and annoying. But I had no choice but to wear them because I was in comatose for a couple of days. When I woke up and found out about the diaper, I asked my mom to take it away but she said that I needed that so that the wires connected in my body won’t be dislocated when I move. It was one of my most shameful experiences but I had to admit that it brought some comfort in my discomfort.

The only way of catching a train I have ever discovered

is to miss the train before.

Many times I feel like I keep on missing the train. Living with Lupus is very challenging. The uncertainty of the illness just makes it difficult to plan ahead. There are days that I feel fine, that I can go out there and be normal. But then again, there are days that I can’t even get up from bed, that I feel so exhausted and I don’t even know why. I used to think that my life is over and I should start blaming God. I was disappointed with Him and I always wanted to ask Him why, “why me…”

It has been six years since I have been battling with this illness. There are so many things that I have learned. It has taught me lessons that I will never learn if I didn’t get sick. I am way passed being angry with God, I cannot stay mad to the One who had blessed me so much. I still haven’t really understood why it was given to me but I have learned to just hold on to my faith, that God knows what He’s doing in my life and all I need is to just put my trust in Him. They say that I am gonna have Lupus for the rest of my life, I am not claiming this for I know that God can heal me anytime, if it is His will.

Slowly, I am learning to embrace having Lupus. I am not loving it but I have learned to co-exist with the illness. I may feel fine today and somehow I am expecting that there will be bad days but what the heck, life goes on. I used to think that my life is like a train, I was always on the fast track but someone hit the brakes and now, I am temporarily stranded. I missed the train and I kept on chasing it, without realizing that no matter what I do, I will just fail. So I guess, it’s time to get on a new train.