Lately, I’m having trouble in sleeping again and I’m having a bit of lupus flare. I’m trying not to be depressed about it, that’s the last I need right now and I’m praying for something to help me look forward to getting up in the morning. I need to be inspired. Sometimes I feel like I’m all alone and empty inside, my doctor said it’s normal for a lupus patient to always feel lonely and I hate it! I used to be a cheerful person and I’m very optimistic but somehow maybe lupus is really making me feel all sorry for myself. There are times that I just want to cry my heart out and I don’t even know why. I feel crazy and stupid.