“They gave our Master a crown of thorns.
Why do we hope for a crown of roses?”
~ Martin Luther ~
When I first read this quote it really struck me, big time! I guess in a way I needed this quote especially today when I’m currently experiencing a down time.
I lead a very small life, yet generally life has been very good to me… I once was called “the girl who has everything” and “someone who has a bright future ahead.” Almost everything in my life is perfect but when things are too good to be true they’re probably are. I used to think that life is like a bed of roses, pretty naive you might say but when you’re living your dream, when everything is just within your grasp and absolutely nothing is going wrong then life indeed is a garden of roses.
Just when I think it could stay that way *boom* I woke up and realize that the dream is over, I am now facing the reality of losing everything I hold dear. I don’t exactly remember how the dream ended it was probably when my younger sister died or when my mother found out my father’s illicit affair with our housemaid, whom by the way I treated like an older sister and my mom even sent her to school and gave her almost everything that I have it was like having a snake living under your roof and all along she was “the other woman” or maybe it was when our business fell apart and I’m no longer the rich girl I used to be, or maybe when I had my heart broken by love so many times that I’ve become cynical about it, or maybe when I woke up and I’m suddenly half paralyzed and the doctor said I got Lupus and I’m gonna have it for the rest of my life… Yeah, you might as well hit me with a paddle and I won’t feel a thing anymore because those reality made me so numb about everything else.
There goes my bed of roses..
I never realize the thorns that comes with it and goodness my life truly sucks!
But there is one moment in my darkest hour that God spoke to me. It was one dark night, there was a deafening silence and unconsciously I found myself staring at the cross just in front of my ICU bed, and I remember what Jesus went through at the cross and suddenly my sufferings seems so lame compared to what He had to went through for our sake and I’m ranting because my life sucks, I felt so ashamed.
As the quote said “Our Master was given a crown of thorns and we always hope for a crown of roses…” what an irony! Every time I’m faced with difficulties, I try to remember that I should be glad that I’m taking part of Jesus sufferings at the cross and even though my life is far from having a garden of roses, the thorns that came my way brought me to my knees and made me strong. I’m no longer hoping for a perfect life, it doesn’t exist anyway just enough strength to go on each day knowing that I can at least be the person that God wants me to be.
God bless you everyone!
September 18th, 2007 at 10:17 am
Hi sis Emmyrose,
I could not help but shed tears while I was reading your post. It was so touching, I don’t know what to say to make you feel better. What you have gone through could have knocked down anybody with a stronger resolve in life but you were able to overcome them all and have remained standing to give glory to the Lord. God bless you more sister for your
unsullied faithfulness to the Lord despite the crosses you have borne for many parts of your life. This verse is for you. “Let us not become weary in doing good for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” (Galatians 6:9) Hang on dear sister, your deliverance is at hand. The Lord will repay you for all the sacrifices and heartaches you so selflessly borne for the glory of God. God bless you with all the happiness, joy and love that He has kept just for you in His great storehouse of blessings. Smile. Have a nice and blessed day.
September 18th, 2007 at 11:02 am
Bro.Mel,
I wrote this last night and I’m thanking Wordpress that I can schedule when to publish my post. I guess I was to down last night that I poured most of my rambling emotions. Thank you for your comforting words. I’m not sure how I did I become so strong but I am thankful that God is always on my side.
Bless your heart
September 18th, 2007 at 2:51 pm
What a beautiful post! Thank you for sharing!
September 18th, 2007 at 3:32 pm
“Just enough strength each day to at least be the person God wants me to be.” Well said! That is all any of us can really ask. Bless you for sharing.
September 18th, 2007 at 6:25 pm
Such a lovely post, bless you dear one.
September 18th, 2007 at 6:27 pm
EmmyRose,
THAT was beautiful…you got me this morning…I could really “feel” it and I love when that happens. Doesn’t it feel so good deep in the soul to finally be on the road to ‘getting it!’ It does for me!
I enjoyed my time here this morning!
thanks for sharing!
lori
September 18th, 2007 at 10:05 pm
May God bless you with more and more endurance and joy in what you have to face day by day. I’m praying that you have wonderful refreshing rest today!
September 18th, 2007 at 11:23 pm
Very good post. I love what you said.”..the thorns that came my way brought me to my knees and made me strong.” It comes down to the matters of the heart. Where is my heart with Jesus? Bless you for sharing. By the way, I’ve presented you with a “You Make Me Smile” award at my place. Pop on over and take a peak. Blessings on your day.
September 19th, 2007 at 9:40 am
What a beautiful post, Emmyrose. Yes, sometimes we need to loose everything in order to get back on the path He has laid out for us. Although I have not had as much pain as you experiencing…I had my fair share.
I am so blessed that you have written this post of hope…thank you so much.
Blessings to you and yours.
September 19th, 2007 at 11:28 am
Thank you so much for your kind comments. God bless you all!
September 19th, 2007 at 6:47 pm
This is my first time on your blog. You open yourself up in an amazing way and are surely a blessing to others. God bless!
September 20th, 2007 at 4:03 pm
Thanks you so much Becky