“Praying is no easy matter. It demands a relationship in which you allow someone other than yourself to enter into the very center of your person, to see there what you would rather leave in darkness, and to touch there what you would rather leave untouched. Why would you really want to do that?”
~ Henri Nouwen ~
I had a chaotic weekend. Everything happened so fast and I was so confused and worried. I was deeply troubled and I just don’t know what to do. I’m not that really a prayerful person like I used to be but last weekend I was again brought to my knees and call unto God for guidance and for deliverance. I know how powerful one prayer can be, I have experienced that all my life and yet sometimes I still doubt if God is listening to my plea.
Praying is truly not that easy, its laying out our deepest desires and emotion to someone we cannot see, to someone we really don’t have enough proof that exists but still we lay our hearts and keep our faith that “someone” out there is listening and is ought to do something for our problems. That “someone” hears our cry and knows us like nobody else can, “He” understands and still accept us no matter how screw up we can be.
The prayer I had last weekend was a prayer that I can only entrust to God, it is one of my deepest secret and yes, I just want to leave all that in darkness and hoping that I will never ever face the consequence of that secret. It is something that God can only understand and I am thankful that even though I am undeserving of His grace, His love and His blessings He still delivered me from that “chaotic” incident and helped me get through it.
Prayer is a sacred thing, its how we connect to God and there’s no wonderful feeling than to unload everything that’s been burdening us in His feet. Let me share to you this wonderful quote:
September 4th, 2007 at 6:14 pm
I love that our deepest secrets can only be understood by God. Praying you receive the answers and the peace that you need.
September 4th, 2007 at 7:25 pm
It is so freeing to know that even our He accepts even our darkest places. I pray you find peace in Him always!
September 4th, 2007 at 7:29 pm
Is it not wonderful that God knows every inch of our being…. and that He cares so much for us. Blessings to you.
September 4th, 2007 at 7:58 pm
thanks for sharing the beautiful quote. you don’t know how deeply am touched by it. it made my tears fall now == ahh guess am just so emotional.
September 4th, 2007 at 9:06 pm
this year is not a good year for me…i am stuck with heavy loads tlg but I never stop praying and praising the LORD.Sometimes I just pretend that I can carry all those loads pero sa totoo lang ang BIGAT…^^
September 4th, 2007 at 10:02 pm
Praying that God continues to carry you through. Blessings and thanks for sharing your struggle and quote…
September 5th, 2007 at 4:16 am
hello emmy. Icame here to compliment your post on FT’s blog. It was very inspiring. It reminded me of my fave book Tuesdays With Morrie. I went here to thank you but I was more surprised to see your blog. Henry Nouwen is one of my influences in my style of writing. He actually inspired me to write. I love all his books and if given the opportunity and chance I would collect them all. Isn’t it weired how God lead you from one blog to another just tofind an inspiration for the day? Ciao and Pax et Bonum. Congrats on the post on FT.
September 5th, 2007 at 4:19 am
btw I will link you up on mysite if that’s ok
September 5th, 2007 at 7:37 am
Hi sis Emmyrose,
I’m sure glad that God answered your prayers. To me, prayer is a humble act of complete submission to an Almighty God who we regard as the great provider for everything we need to survive. Prayers grant a ready access to His awesome presence where we can be totally submissive to His divine will. Prayer is not only supplication, it is more of communing deeply with our Creator. We know Him more through prayers. We develop a deeper intimacy with Him through prayers. Prayers unlock the secret doors of God’s great storehouse of blessings and the great key is faith or the belief that God indeed answers prayers. Thanks for the great and moving post. God bless you with His great revelations and blessings for you.
September 5th, 2007 at 10:58 am
Thank you so much for your comments and prayers. I truly appreciate them all.
September 5th, 2007 at 3:35 pm
Your prayer will be answered. I love that you brought grace into the discussion.
September 7th, 2007 at 5:51 am
Hi sis, napadaan lang ako dito. I love this one. It’s 100% true!
September 9th, 2007 at 2:38 am
God’s understanding as deep as it can be. We can never really understand His ways. I also have my own deepest secrets, sis and I loath the day it will come out in the open. But I know He will keep it for me.
God bless, sis! You take care always ok?
September 9th, 2007 at 7:42 pm
Thanks for your prayers