“Blessed Be Your name
When I’m found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name…”
~ Matt Redman ~
Lyrics from “Blessed be Your Name”

When I first became a Christian, I was on fire! I became very active in the youth ministry and I used my gifts to serve the Lord, my light was shining so brightly that you will never thought it will ever dim, but it did. I can’t remember exactly when I started to backslide, I was probably so young and foolish then. And maybe, I was rebelling at God for the break-up of my parent’s marriage or perhaps I didn’t really know what it really means to be a Christian at that time.

During those years that I turned myself away from God, I stopped going to church, I kept my Bible hidden and I even stopped praying. And I was doing fine. I’ve got everything that I needed and my life turned out to be just the way I want it to be. And I often tell myself, I can do this on my own and I don’t need God.

But God’s love is indeed mysterious, I don’t know why He was so persistent to re-enter my life again even though I have rejected Him for so many times. God knew I needed to be saved from myself. I do believe that sometimes we need to be slapped by God in order for us to see the light again and God didn’t just slapped me, He kicked me so hard that the only thing I can do was to run to Him.

I was in my desert place… I was so exhausted from walking and walking without knowing where I should go, I was lost and scared. This is how I describe the event in my life where I was first struck by a mysterious disease. I was in a middle of nowhere and uncertainties clouded my life. I was broken into bits of pieces and this is where God came in and extended His hands on me, He picked me up and used my brokenness to call me into His arms.

My light may not be shining as brightly as it used to be, I am not even on fire just yet in serving the Lord but what matters most is now I truly understand what means to be a Christian and the value of having God in my life. Even though many times I feel unworthy of His grace, I am blessed because He chose not to give up on me and for that I will forever praise and bless His name.

This is not my first IOW, I used to post in my other blog Pieces of Me but I decided to have it here from now on. Head on to Sting My Heart for more of IOW.

God bless you all!

Posted on Tuesday, August 14th, 2007 at 7:26 pm and is filed under CWO: In "other" Words, Inspirational, Personal. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.